And so, today, I can’t muster up the faith that preachers say is required for God to answer my prayers. It’s a David Day, and I feel like ___________.
God? I don’t even have the strength to ask you “why?” anymore.
Christians aren’t supposed to act this way, or feel this way, or admit defeat… but then, this is a David Day…
David Days are part of life, a season when I should not make life-changing decisions. I must gather up courage and plow on.
Forget about feelings.
Ignore the anger.
Shut down emotions.
Trust God and do the tasks in front of me.
But what about believing and receiving, and faith that moves mountains?
Nope. These are David Days. Ease up and know Jesus. Know that he is listening and seeing. Stop trying to be strong. Let God carry the load.
King David summed it up nicely.
I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD. (Psa. 27:13,14)
What am I “waiting” for? For Him to speak — through scripture. Through events. In the deeps of my heart. Through counsel.
It’s okay to have David Days. In fact, I grow closer to Jesus BECAUSE of them. God’s grace doesn’t flip on and off like a light switch. I can pour out my doubts and ugly feelings to Jesus without fear of a tongue-lashing.
Hear my voice when I call, LORD; be merciful to me and answer me. My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”
Your face, LORD, I will seek. (Psa. 27:7,8)
Thanks for being here, listening, Lord.